aw hell. *hugs* I'm so sorry, flyby. I'm keeping you in my thoughts.
I want you to do something for me, hon. Going to sound a little crazy, but I'm speaking from experience here: start taking some zinc, vitamin c, and echinacea. Or any other supplements that will help boost your immune system to help reduce the cold/flu you'll probably get within the next few weeks. All the stress you've been under and will be under, is going to take what's left of your immune system and run it over like a freight train. You need to take care of you. Don't forget that.
Also, I'm really glad to see how you phrased your post. It's okay to feel relieved. It really, really is. Please don't forget that. Feeling relieved that she's not hurting anymore doesn't mean that you didn't love her. BUT, also feeling relieved that your life doesn't have to revolve around the same things anymore doesn't mean that you didn't love her, either. Feeling those things doesn't mean that you're selfish; it means that you're human, and it's okay to feel those things.
I hope that you don't need any of what I'm telling you. I just remember that when I was 17 and going through this, that I learned to hate myself for many many years. I wish someone had told me these things then, instead of having to spend a couple decades figuring them out for myself.
If you need anything, Flyby, don't hesitate to ask, okay? We're all here for you when you need us.
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I want you to do something for me, hon. Going to sound a little crazy, but I'm speaking from experience here: start taking some zinc, vitamin c, and echinacea. Or any other supplements that will help boost your immune system to help reduce the cold/flu you'll probably get within the next few weeks. All the stress you've been under and will be under, is going to take what's left of your immune system and run it over like a freight train. You need to take care of you. Don't forget that.
Also, I'm really glad to see how you phrased your post. It's okay to feel relieved. It really, really is. Please don't forget that. Feeling relieved that she's not hurting anymore doesn't mean that you didn't love her. BUT, also feeling relieved that your life doesn't have to revolve around the same things anymore doesn't mean that you didn't love her, either. Feeling those things doesn't mean that you're selfish; it means that you're human, and it's okay to feel those things.
I hope that you don't need any of what I'm telling you. I just remember that when I was 17 and going through this, that I learned to hate myself for many many years. I wish someone had told me these things then, instead of having to spend a couple decades figuring them out for myself.
If you need anything, Flyby, don't hesitate to ask, okay? We're all here for you when you need us.